I Like The Wilderness

Life is a journey, I know that sounds cliche, but it is so true and lately I have been caught up in its many twists and unexpected turns. God has been teaching Zach and me so much and over Christmas break we started transitioning into a new season of our lives. The first 4 months of our marriage were spent in something I like to call a spiritual desert. Here we were in Miami where we didn't know a single soul, neither one of us had a job, and God seemingly stopped giving us any sense of direction. Of course Zach ended up getting his part time job and our family members helped support us a lot but it was so hard trying to not only understand but accept the fact that as a new RN there were no jobs for me. I felt so lost because nothing had gone according to my plan. I was supposed to land some amazing job at a hospital and start earning more than enough money to support us while doing what my heart so deeply desires.

The answer to all my pleas to God were simply "Seek Me, seek My heart, I desire to be known by you." Needless to say I followed His instruction, what else is a girl to do?? As I started seeking Him more and the closer I got to His heart the more I just became broken before Him. Even the slightest mention of a lost soul, a hurting heart, or a broken spirit would send me into tears. To feel God's yearning for His children to be made whole is something so overpowering words cannot even begin to describe it. I'm still not quite sure what He is trying to develop within me or the purpose for whatever it is but I do know that my sensitivity to His spirit played a major role in our transition from desert to now wilderness. I will have to share the story of how this transition came about another time but for now I just want to give an update on what season we are in now.

When we came back to Miami after new years, gearing up for a new semester, we knew that we were done with Zach's job but needed God to direct us somewhere else before we would be able to leave it. We knew God was up to something and felt the anticipation of it. I was guided to apply at chick-fil-a and was called for an interview. 20 mins into the interview I was offered a job and told by my boss that he felt it was a "God thing" and that God has a purose for me there. I have been working for 3 weeks now, Zach was able to quit his job, we found a church, a small group, and an amazing freshly married couple like ourselves as friends. Like I said life is a journey and God has me on this crazy ride that doesn't make sense but I take comfort in knowing that it is all for His glory and for our good because we love Him and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28) We still have no idea where we are or what we are doing here in this wilderness, we dont' even know where God is taking us next but I do know that compared to the desert, I like the wilderness.